PassiveIre

I'm so EXCITED! (I'm lying, I feel like CRAP today, but I'm faking it because I know I WILL be excited after I start feeling better!)

I'm in Oregon, and it's getting cold WAY earlier than I'm used to, but the leaves are going to start turning colors soon!
My job is going very well, I even spent some money on a few pieces of clothing that I've always wanted (a denim jacket and a couple of pairs of corduroy pants), but other than that, I've been stashing my checks in the bank!

I also have a birthday this month!

October is just chock-full of win, guys! Best month of the year: cooler weather, sweaters, scarves, (actually, just clothes layering in GENERAL, yes), pretty nature, my birthday, horror flicks, costumes, candy, CHANGE.

^ Dis

So family and all, I babysit alot. Non-stopishly, it feels like, some days. But just when the hooligans are being hellions. Oh, and that's why I haven't posted the pics (that I've taken--that are ON MY COMPUTER RIGHT NOW--of my doodles. I frustrate myself, though, endlessly.) Nieces and Nephews.

So, I'm awake at five in the morning (before that actually, but it's a little after five a.m. when I'm posting this, my time) because caffeine and trying to sleep equals nightmares. Even after a lovely evening of rainstorms and sisterly bonding (game shows were watched and fingernails were painted), my brain conjures up my worst fears about my future. So I'm up and awake and not sleeping~

I'm posting this (almost titling it 'My Oldest Niece is the BEST') because I found a BOOK that my 6-year-old-niece MADE. "fun ativetes and creasons" (Fun Activities and Creations), which I am not going to share with you guys because it's that adorable and I just can't help myself.

Pg. 1: She drew a picture of a FLAMINGO (seriously her first choice of bird for the day)...out of circles. 11 circles and a three-feathered wing.

Pg. 2: "this is a circle radio." ...and she drew a radio wih circles. ...even inclued circle-music notes, the antannae, and the handle to carry the portable radio by. (I love this child!!)

Pg. 3: ((I'm going to take a moment that she's adopted this .... cardboard...thing... that came out of a board game me and my friends played the day before. That piece that people usually throw away because you've popped all the player disc/coins/markers out of it? Yeah, she's utilizing that thing on this page--the others are free-handed.))
She's drawn a 'bee hive' (half a page of stenciled cirlces all askew and out of line, on-purpos. And up at the top there's this TINY bee ((I'mma beee~)) drawn in free-hand-circles.
Caption: "Bees are very Dangerous! they can sting you and me." ((I'm keeping the spelling/punctuation exactly how she wrote it because it's CUTE, dammit!))

Pg. 4: *Detailed picture of a fish...tied to a rock, I think. A rock with a starfish on it. With seaweed.*
Caption: "I saw this on tV!"

THE END.

And she left it for me to find on my bookshelf. "Because you really like books!" she said.

This kid...you guys...

I recently got internet back, after a month of not having it. I am now wading through 425 messages on dA, and am on the 261st page of my Tumblr updates. I think I might be getting close to the half-way point of the Tumblr mess. And I have the most annoyingly sharp caffeine headache~....I needed a break from Tumblr.

It's killing me that I've been without my favorite show for a MONTH. I fangirl so hard about it. I thought, when I got internet back, I'd be able to catch up on the past three episodes that I missed, but nooooo~ Not available again until August-something (2nd or 10th, I don't know, somwhere in the first week).

AND my other favorite show is going an a 2-week hiatus because of the Olympics. I WANNA WATCH PEOPLE DANCE!

Other than that, I've been babysitting, drawing, writing (hahahah! omg), and hanging out with friends once a week~ Last week we went to see the new Batman movie and I cried everywhere. While trying adamantly to NOT cry everywhere. I need to go watch that again.

I will be posting some new drawings sometime soooon! <3 I have my camera and new pens so they are INKED~ <3 I love inking. I stayed up all night, this past month, just going through old and unfinished drawings, inking the lines because I haven't had the right pens in FOREVER.

Fanart soon to come to your browser, I iz not dead.

So I'm spending the month of June (and the last week of the past MAY) in Oregon with Momma~ <3 YAY, yes, but I'm seriously missing my friends at this point. I've been awful and busy for the most part of two weeks and haven't called home AT ALL. (stabby guilt feelings, believe me, guys).

I think my mom is getting her 'Show Erin THIS to-do' list whittled down a bit. So far:

*we cook SO much yummy food
     not even kidding, the food is amazing, we've had, like, three dinner parties/company and the grill is getting USED. It's all super simple food, too, it's just GOOD. (so good, I might not even share if I *COULD*)

*the three dogs are awesome and love/lick me to pieces
    they do tricks, and SIT and WAIT while I fill their food bowls (< u < holy crackers, that's awesome!), one of them actually SNUGGLES with me and slept in my bed that one evening I was siiiiick. I told them about three other LOVELY puppies (that belong to not me) that I MISS. One's all motherly and sweet. There's a huge goofball. And a NINJA doggie! (she pops outta NOWHERE demanding attention, all pretty and cute, and then barks and growls at the other doggies for being rowdy. even though she's the youngest. she doesn't want to be in trouble.)

*golf-course driving (hah! she wh-wants me to plaaaaay..XD...no)
     Effing love driving that golf-cart. <3 the hills/fields/flowers/birds/clouds are nice to look at too, I even have my first "farmer's tan" from driving the lovelies around today. I think I wish cars were golf carts, it would make things SO much easier. (There are trains that go by every few minutes or so while they're playing and I'm zoning out. It makes me wonder if my friend could tell me all the different types from the view at the golf course.)

*beer
     I think she's hoping I'll get tired of it by the time I go back home, but I'm not even drinking much. (seriously serious, here)

*casino
    Mainly just because they like to go and I never have been. It was fun. My favorite game was RIGHT under the AIR CONDITIONER. Also, I think I'll stick to gambling in the video game casinos. I did not like losing real money. It sucked.

*LANDMARKS
   SO MUCH FUN taking pics of the few parks we've been to. There are more (landmarks) that are on the list, but they are more of 'Me and Momma' things. All of the pics are on not my camera so I'll have to get those uploaded/imported to my laptop before I leave.
         -I did not know what a butte was before Oregon, now I do.

*Goodwill
   I have stuffs from there now! And mom likes to go 'treasure-hunting/antiquing' there. Oh, I'm not knocking it, she bought a piece of china and/or a FORK for around twenty-fifty cents a piece....they sell for like, $10+ a piece. PROFIT. (I just blinked my eyes for this one cute skirt that I LOVE and will WEAR all the time back in Alabama because the weather will WARRANT skirt-wearing--it's beautiful!)
   Also, I bought a tiny little surprise from there that will be given away when I get back home.

*Driving
   Tried it, will continue to try it. THERE ARE WAY MORE CARS HERE! *panic* TT^TT

*Miscellaneous
    ((the following comment is kind of directed at Laura)) HOLY CRAP! I saw bison, and a pair of BLACK PUMPS that's brand name was "Mrs. Bison" (fangirl squees from Oregon)~ and alot of other stuff from here that I want to SHARE, gah. The hills and birds, I will miss the most. Quail, I saw one BRIEFLY, and it has this cute little ornament on it's forehead~ (yes, I've known OF the existence of all this crap, but now I'm SEEING it, let me spazz a little). The magpies here are so pretty! Their tails!! <3 It made me think that they are the guards/knights of for peacocks, or something--if the animal kingdom had civilizations like that, and all. Peacocks are just so .... DECORATED...and the magpies are all black and white and down-to-business looking. (does this make ANY sense?!) I will probably come home drawing quail and magpie peoples. *sigh* There are so many flowers here too, so different from home. I saw a baby praying mantis, and it's egg-sack (thing, wth do you call those?!) There are so many blues and greens and yellows and textures and crop patterns.

I. WANT. IT. TO. RAIN.
Mom woke me up in the car today and was all, "Hey, there's your rain you've been wanting~" (she tries to make all my dreams come true, she really does) ....it was five minutes later before the windshield-wipers had to be activated. I miss mountain rain. somuch.

I've only had one weird dream since I've been here, I'm off sleeping pills so far. And I'm kind of frustrated that I'm not finding time to reach back home to my friends. And that this journal is so oddly punctuated. I should probably say 'incorrectly' instead of 'oddly' but I don't want to.

Lastly, flying is AMAZING. I love it. Can't wait to come HOME. (How many times have I said 'home' in this journal....can you tell I miss it?)

(Because I like to steal quizes and fill them out for fun.)

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Why, yes, my youngest nephew most certainly did~

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

NO! *laughs* No.

3. When's the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

Earlier this morning; Braiden was being super cute and wiggly and smart, but I was trying to fasten his diaper.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

I do all the time.

5. Is there someone mad because you're dating/talking to the person you are?

Uhm...no? I highly doubt it.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

Not yet.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

Pink long socks, undies, favorite worn-in jeans, undershirt, giant long-sleeved shirt of comfy goodness. Glasses.

8. How often do you listen to music?

Most definitely.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Jeans.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?

Yep.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

...shy?

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter 'A'?

Egh. Yeah.

13. What about 'R'?

Nope.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

Nope.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Kinda. I don't feel like I'd deserve it.

16. Are you going out of town soon?

Yes! How'd you know~

17. When was the last time you cried?

*squints* I...don't...remember.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

Mhmm.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

Possibly. I've always wanted to try brown for a while.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

Psh, yeah.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you're having.

It's chilly. :<

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

Sure, unless I asked for a real smooch.

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

I'm not dating ANYONE. So, no.

24. What are you sitting on right now?

A love-seat.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

Yep.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn't have?

Uh-huh. Crushes are like that though.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

My oldest niece.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

No way~

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

My mom.

30. Does anyone hate you?

Maybe?

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

*Laughs* No, I really don't.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

I...no. Just no.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

Kinda.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Hmmm.....That (almost) year (10 months, really) that I was in Jacksonville during highschool.

35. Did you have a dream last night?

I slept for two hours....so no.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

About an hour ago.

37. Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?

Not really.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Not romantical feelings, no.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Nope. Well, if they're reading this, then...maybe.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

Eh. 8\

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

Not even a little bit. <3

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

Yes. She's 5.

43. Has anyone told you they don't want to ever lose you?

Pfffh. I mean.... >__>

44. What's the best part about school?

Friends. Artclass. Lunch. Reading/the library/English Lit. I actually kind of liked the long bus-ride, too.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

I sure do.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

All the time.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

ALL the tim.

48. Were you single over the last summer?

Yes.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

Not really.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Being awesome.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

"Talked to" or "Had a CONVERSATION" with?

52. Are you nice to everyone?

No? (*I* don't think I am, others disagree.)

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?

Yes, actually.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Ugh, gah. Yes. Yes, I think I can NOT CHEAT.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Hell no.

56. Do you think you like someone?

Not even a little bit.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a 'J'?

Nope, guess again.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

Girls.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

Bless their hearts, yes.

60. Do you hate anyone?

I *DO*.

61. How's your heart?

Fiiiine? <__<

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

.... T__T

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

Quite often.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

Ugh...I can think of about five people? It's kinda all they know how to do...so....

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

No, they are nakie.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

Probably.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

I wouldn't know.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

Maybe when I was a teensy kid? Not since I can remember, let's go with that.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

My mother.

70. How do you look right now?

Frumpy? I guess.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

Hellz yeah!

72. Can you commit to one person?

I have.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Not anymore.

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

Yep.

75. Did you wake up cranky?

Not today.

76. Are you a jealous person?

Sometimes. Not often.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

Yeah.

78. Anyone you're giving up on?

Absolutely.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

Kinda.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Babysitting~

81. Last person you cried in front of?

My best friend.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

Everyone has those.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

I don't, so they wouldn't be.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

>__> ....

85. Are you over your past?

Some days.

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

No. I LOVE THEM.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

Yeah.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

Fuckno. Oh..sorry...was that mean? >,>

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

No, we can sit on the porch.

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

Uhhh...I don't think so?

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

No, I will not.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

Yes, he does awesome card tricks.

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

*sigh* NO.

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

I kinda want to write a "NO" song right about now.

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

That was last month! Fine, all the eye-candy crushes are wonderful--I'm super delighted with them.

96. Don't tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

Yes.

97. Who do you have texts from?

Peeeeeople?

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

WHATHEFffff--I'm so tired of 'someone you liiiiiiike~' questions. (Why didn't I read through these before I copy/pasted.) T__T

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Most all of them were older.

100. Who's in your profile picture with you?

...my...glasses? (no one, I'm being a smart ass)

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

No, but I'm stealing that for my list.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

Oh yeah. Most definitely.